Being Busy, The New Form of Greed...

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For the first time in my life there's time for everything. I guess that's because I've gotten rid of everything I don't have time for. I've been pondering the idea of "too much." I honestly think it's a form of greed, driven by the fear of not having enough. I would have never considered myself a greedy or selfish person, however when we really look underneath things they tend to be self centered. I have been driven my whole life to create, teach, and make money. I love so many things and ,being a huge visionary, there is a lot I want to do. My chief complaint is that there is not enough time in the day or not enough of me to go around. This spins me into that the disappointment that is "not enough." Maybe with more balance or more time blocking I can achieve everything. This year I realized if it's too much all the time then it's not mine to achieve. I am only supposed to achieve the amount in a day or in life that makes me happy, joyous, and free. This allows me to be in each moment as it unfolds. Many of us worry about a future that doesn't even happen. Why waste time in the present worried about what has not yet unfolded? After all doesn't it take one step at a time to walk a mile? If while we walk the mile we miss all the steps then what good is the journey? Now I choose a smaller life, one that I do have time, money, and energy to show up for. I wasn't born to do everything. We can't be in Spain and Mexico at the same time, sometimes we have to choose between two great things.

​Heidi
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